Turtle Pulse Check (04/15)

Today has been a good and productive day at the office. I spent time responding to phone calls and getting at projects that have been sitting on my desk for a while. I also spent some time packing and cleaning in the office with our move accross the street pending for Friday.

Last night I had a better conversation with Beth. I spent less time thinking about me and more time attending to her thoughts and feelings. I tried not to be defensive, but just to listen. I found more peace for myself in this process. I also became more aware of how my addiction hurts her. That doesn't feel good, but it is better to know the truth than to continue to live in denial.

Here is today's pulse check:


FEELINGS

Hopeful, grateful, busy, anxious, happy


ISSUES

Keeping up with my work load while also cleaning my office and preparing to move.


NEEDS

I need to find a way to maintain honesty with Beth, even when I have acted out. Although it usually involves pain, I have found that in the case of my addict, the truth really does set me free.