March 6, 2006

Didn't sleep last night. Anxiety attack. This reminds me that I haven't renewed my meds yet and, in fact, haven't taken my meds for two weeks. Hmmm ...

The addict has so many hurdles to stumble past. Failure to take care of oneself physically can leave the addict exposed to extra vulnerability. Sure, you're supposed to make recovery your number one priority, but recovery cannot be effective without attention to mental health, physical health, positive social contact, good time management, etc. Pretty soon, making recovery your first priority really means making everything your first priority. And now you wonder, "Do I really have any priorities at all?"

At times like this, awake in the night with the realization that he hasn't taken good care of his basic needs, all the addict can do (because addicts don't want to wake anybody up) is whisper for help.

"Help."