Go, Addict, Go!

Today the addict celebrates unexpected victory! Yes, the addict has now been sober for 23 days, but that is not the victory. Last evening in Minneapolis the addict was crowned the Champion for the Metro Division of the Toastmaster's International Speech Contest!!

What a strange and unexpected experience for an addict. The addict joined Toastmasters less than a year ago in hopes of reducing fear and anxiety of speaking in public. The addict has a terribly hard time believing that people actually enjoyed his speech. This does not accord with the addict's world view: "I am a worthless person. No one will love me if they truly get to know me. I must take care of my own needs. etc."

So today the addict celebrates and wonders. How can this be? When will they discover the truth about me and revoke the title? Was it all just a dream?

Whatever happened, the addict feels affirmed. The addict is happy. For a moment. And grateful for that moment of happiness.

Go, addict, go!