More and more the addict has been seeking the one thing that could put all the other things into line. Just find one thing to work on and everything else will fall into place. But that one thing, if there is one, is elusive.
Instead, the addict spends most days either obsessed with recovery (and finding greater and greater temptation to give in to his addictive behavior), or ignoring recovery altogether (and stumbling, feeling shame and guilt, and losing the battle).
Recovery can't be everything, can it? There's so much else to fight for here. How am I treating others? How am I treating myself? Do I love God? Don't these questions have to come ahead of recovery?
The addict has no answers. But the addict is grateful. The addict is grateful to his brothers who pledge their support and provide guidance. The addict is grateful for work he enjoys. The addict is grateful for a place where he can express his thoughts and fears. But most of all, the addict is grateful for TBO (The Beautiful One). She is his life-partner, his soul-mate, his muse, his comforter. With her, life is beautiful and grand. Without her, life is empty and cold.
No, recovery cannot be for her. The addict must want healing for himself. But the Beautiful One brings joy to the life of the addict.
"Thank you, Beautiful One, for all the ways you support me, love me, and bring me joy!"
Yes, the addict is lost. But the addict is twice found: saved by Christ and comforted by the Beautiful One.
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