Note to Blueshirts

Good morning, Blueshirts:

I am looking forward to our meeting tonight (6:00 at Perkins).

Last week I reported a victory when I spent the day home and didn't act out despite great opportunity. Now I check in with defeat.

I acted out on Friday afternoon, at the office, in the Fishbowl. I took a very narrow window of opportunity in the late afternoon and viewed internet pornography. I apologize to the group and ask for your forgiveness.

What was happening?

I think I hit up with a combination of boredom, uncertainty, and wanting a reward. I finished a project on Friday around 3:00 and didn't really want to push on to the next. My addict told me I deserved a reward of some sort and I turned to the same place I have turned in the past. This "boredom cycle" frustrates me. I think it will also be the hardest of my triggers to overcome.

Last year I had some success by finding an alternative outer-circle behavior. I gave myself permission to read at the office when I hit those boredom stretches. Certainly reading is not being productive at work, but it is a better outlet than the internet.

I would like to hear your thoughts this evening on ways to combat those afternoon lulls. All feedback appreciated.

Thank you, Brothers! See you tonight!