A Note to My Fellow Blueshirts

Hello, Brothers:

I write to you with mixed news today. I am still in Miami and the conference has gone very well from a professional standpoint. But on the personal front, I stumbled and acted out on the internet yesterday. So I will not be able to celebrate a sober trip this time.

What happened?

The trip was actually going very well. I arrived in Miami on Saturday and started getting acclimated. I met with some of the others from our company and enjoyed a long run along Miami's South Beach. I didn't sleep well Saturday night, but I did remain sober.

The conference started Sunday and I was prompt in my attendance. I met with some prospective clients and had a chance to promote what we are doing in my department. I went out for another run on the beach and joined other team members for a nice dinner. I slept very well Sunday night and remained sober.

Monday was another successful day on the business front and featured another opportunity for exercise. But then I acted out Monday evening.

I think I became very nervous and stressed about the presentation I was to give today. This was a lunch time, featured speaker presentation to about 200 professionals in my industry. This is the largest and most prestigious speaking opportunity I have had and this was to be the first time that I delivered this particular presentation.

As of Monday I was not satisfied with the presentation. I hadn't found that unifying theme I needed to bring it all together and I was beginning to doubt my ability to pull it all off. So I turned to the internet and escaped into the world of pornography. Not the response I needed to make my presentation successful.

I got very little sleep Monday night, but, ironically, I got some inspiration about my speech as I was drifting off. By this morning I had figured out how to make the presentation work. And, in fact, the talk was very well received.

So professionally, a good day ... but I am left to wonder why acting out had to be the personal cost. There has to be a better way.



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D-Monk