I have been struggling lately, particularly in the late afternoons. Last week I struggled on-and-off every day at the office. Yesterday I set a plan which included an afternoon phone call from Rod. The plan worked until 5:30. Then I was at the end of my day, tired, and not sure what to do. I made the wrong choice and spent some time surfing the internet.
These struggles are very frustrating, especially given the success of my recent time apart from Beth including the business trip to Orlando.
I have reflected on this as I pray the serenity prayer - Give me the courage to change the things I can. I think that God's grace to me during my Orlando trip shows me that I do have the power to make certain changes to my behavior. I do have the power to say no to the internet - if I have prayed about it, made a plan, and maintained contact with my accountability partners.
Now that God has gifted me with some measure of success on the road, it is up to me to respond to His call to strive for sobriety at work. I need to approach each work day with the same level of caution and reliance on God as I did while traveling. And for that I need help from all of you:
+ please pray for me that I may find the grace to maintain sobriety until our next meeting.
+ I am committed to calling each of you once a day; please hold me accountable.
+ let me hear from you as well - "it is not good for man to be alone."
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