Note to Blueshirts

Hello, Blueshirts:

Today it's slippery but sober.

I have had a good week - at home and at the office. The gift of sobriety has continued. But I am also finding myself distracted this week. Perhaps it is because it's summer. Perhaps it's because I haven't refilled my A.D.D. medication. Perhaps it's because a holiday weekend is on it's way and our family will be headed up north.

Whatever the reason, I find myself less present at the office. My mind is not on my work. That in itself is not so bad, but once my mind starts wandering addictive behavior is one of the places it will inevitably stumble upon.

This happened to me yesterday afternoon. I had completed a project and was yearning for vacation and the great outdoors. To that point I had not experienced any desire for acting out nor any serious triggers. But suddenly my mind was not focused and I found myself wanting to go to old websites. I even started down that path for a little while.

This type of episode really frustrates me. I don't feel safe with myself. What is it that takes me back to that place even when life is going good?


Today:

F - distracted, frustrated, hopeful, grateful

I - stay focused at work

N - to be rigorously honest with myself and others; to surrender all to Christ.


Thanks for listening, Brothers. Have a great day!